Thursday, April 08, 2010

For myself, just for me.

I would like to be selfish and ignorant,
Not understanding, nor correct.
Let everyone go to hell
if they cannot understand and protect.
Impossible to explain my intentions (specially if never asked)
Why such expectations from me,
when others go scot free?
Why should I care?
Why am I forced to care?
To be polite, to be there?
Why can't I just let go?
Why won't I be allowed to?
I want love for myself, solely my own.
Nothing stolen, not a loan.
Let me know if I deserve it God.
Let me know if I can have yours and if you call me your own.

Friday, January 08, 2010

Not On, In My Mind

Mistakes to make,
Questioned at random,
In my mind!

Clichés tried,
Lyrics quoted,
In my mind!

Thoughts swept,
Mundane space,
In my mind!

Feelings selected,
Ignored and still,
In my mind!

Totally and completely,
In my mind!

To let my kids be..kids!

I must allow my kids to be,

Kids, while they can still be,
If that means as an adult I need to accompany,
I have to ensure so. I have to let work be.
Off I am, homeward bound, suddenly feeling free.
Work piling on will still bring me peace,
A wise man once said, satisfied I can go to bed,
My to-do list for tomorrow is already all there!
                                                             --Roli

Thursday, January 07, 2010

My son learns and teaches tolerance

My fourteen-year old son and I read an article in the newspaper recently about the tolerance that Indians show towards others' religions and beliefs. According to a research conducted in Washignton, India ranks right after Iraq because of the conflicts and riots that occur on the account of religion. This is in extreme contradiction to India's claim of being a secular country with pluralist beliefs.
Honestly speaking, it took my son and me a little while to complete reading this article. Football and house cleaning required urgent attention. (Though I do wish that the house cleaning task would grow up instead of just growing larger everyday.) We all realize this problem but choose to ignore. Until it happens to us or one of our own, we do not want to spend any time on the problems mushrooming in our country, not realizing that because we never pause in our rat-races to nip the social problems, these increase to such humongous proportions that finally strikes, street-marches, even sessions in the parliament offer zero solutions. Because of our amazing tolerance with these issues, we are going nowhere as a nation. Social evils nullify technological progress. Religious conflicts block economic growth. So, thanks for the reminder about this problem.
But I am really thankful for the article because it offered me a peep into my son’s mind. After reading the article, my fourteen-year old son launched into a two-hour discussion, citing examples from his life of the way people show a total lack of tolerance for others’ beliefs. I was quite taken aback at the intensity with which my son exposulated his feelings on the matter.

He pored over the reasons why people insist that their God and religion is superior, and even proposed some solutions for these problems. He expressed his sadness that this intolerance is handed down the generations, and many of his friends exhibit these biases, using mockery and group-ism to prove their superiority. He says that we are not biased by religion alone. Prejudices exist for any thing – the state one hails from, class, color, income, sex, even food choices. Divisionary boundaries are so deeply etched that no amount of logic has any impact. His desire to rise above such categorization and be just a human pleases me as a mother. But I wish as an adult, I was contributing more.

Friday, January 01, 2010

Incentive to end the undestined

DESTINY

It may be that two souls meet and it is not destined that they are to be together in this world. They touch each other and part. They have other work to do. Yet the meeting can never be forgotten; it is ingrained on the soul itself.
Reshad Field

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Chocolate rules the day..

Seems yummy and simple enough to try. http://www.blisstree.com/chocolatebytes/chocolate-sugar-cookies/
Chocolate Sugar Cookies
2 1/4 cups white, all-purpose flour
1 cup sugar
1 3/4 sticks unsalted butter, room temperature
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
3 egg yolks
1/4 cup unsweetened dark cocoa powder
Pinch of salt
Powdered sugar
~ Place the flour on your work space and make a well in it. Add all the other ingredients and kneed the mixture with your hands until it forms a ball of dough.
~ Divide the dough in two equal parts. Place the first half on a sheet of parchment paper and roll it out with a rolling pin until it’s less than 1/2 inch thick. Cut the dough with cookie cutters. Repeat with second half of dough.
~ Bake at 350 degrees for 12 minutes or until done. Sprinkle with powdered sugar.
These would also be great with a basic buttercream frosting, or some melted, drizzled white chocolate and sprinkles.

Try out and learn

Got a fantastic recipe for Chocolate chip nut muffins - already drooling!
http://www.blisstree.com/chocolatebytes/chocolate-chocolate-chip-nut-muffins/
Chocolate Chocolate Chip Nut Muffins
2 cups all-purpose flour
1/2 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
1 1/2 cups white sugar
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
2 teaspoons baking powder
1/4 teaspoon salt
1 1/4 cups milk
1 egg
2 tablespoons vegetable oil
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 cup semisweet chocolate chips
3/4 cup chopped walnuts
1/3 cup whole almonds
4 tablespoons white sugar
Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease muffin cups or line with paper muffin liners.
In medium bowl, Sift together flour, cocoa, sugar, baking powder, baking soda and salt. In large bowl stir in milk, egg, oil and vanilla. Mix dry ingredients to large bowl; beat well. Add chocolate chips and walnuts, stir well.
Fill muffin cups 3/4 full. Poke almonds into tops of unbaked muffins. Sprinkle muffins with sugar. Bake for 20 to 25 minutes, or until toothpick inserted in center comes out clean.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Moving on...

Desperate I am to find,
A different address to problems of mine,
Any other place would do,
But wait, I wouldn't do that to you,
We've been happy you and I,
Somewhere I lost the will, could no longer try
Snatching and tearing, I give in and give up,
Left to my devices, I welcome entry to the singles club.

Resist crime

Read this article today: Ruchika Girhotra case: Molestation of minor, abuse of power - India - The Times of India
I have trouble containing my anger, and I don't even know if that's the right thing for us to do. Why is it necessary for us to control our anger and negative emotions when criminals like Rathore commit crimes and get away? Why should we not give in to our anger and rise up in arms against these people and remove them from our society? Why should the citizens not take on the task of protection when the protectors become the perpetrators? Why should we enable such an environment to be created that these monsters can wear the garb of public protectors and then use that to cloak their own heinous crimes. Good and honest people like the Girhotra family are tortured and driven to suicide by these terrible monsters, and the society abets them. The school expels this brave girl instead of standing up for her rights. Each one of them has gone scot free- the cop, the school, the cop's wife, the other inspectors who beat up Ruchika's brother. And isn't it ironic that the wife of this horrible man stands up for him in court as his advocate and requests the court for leniency because he has appeared 400 times in this case. Did she not realize that she was a human being, and more importantly, a woman, before she became his wife? I know it's difficult to rise up to the challenge of resisting crime and standing up against influential cops, but at least we can try not to assist them in their ventures against mankind.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Coming back one more time...


I just returned from a trip of a lifetime to Peru. Got to see Machu Picchu, climbed Wayna Picchu, and did it all smiling. Totally elated would have been the feeling. But maybe it's the jetlag, maybe it's the time that's elapsed, maybe it's the fact that I've given up on a dream, I just feel like I started down the spiral of depression. It's going to take a lot of willpower I know to fight this feeling and remain afloat. Thank God for the fact that I don't have any other choice but to stay positive, and to see this thing through.